“Tie Me To The Altar, Lord!”


Photo by Cindy Wiebelhaus

By Cindy Wiebelhaus
Guest Writer

When “life” happens, our flesh (the natural man, as the Bible calls it), can look at it either positively or negatively. However, when we look at it from a spiritual perspective, whether what happens is good or bad, we KNOW it’s good, right? How do we know that? Because the Bible says in Romans 8:28 that all things work together for our good.

We know that this tiny inch called “life on earth” is so incredibly small compared to the length of eternity.  However, when we are pressed on every side, this life on earth can be overwhelming and requires us to draw near to our Lord.  When I’m overwhelmed, I crawl under His “wing” (Psalm 91:4) and try to remind myself that is where I am 100 percent of the time!This all sounds good, doesn’t it? But let me say this, “we teach best what we most need to learn.”  I am living proof of this statement!  I certainly don’t have it together.  I struggle minute by minute many times.  For example, I struggle with a string of illnesses that keep me housebound.  They are auto-immune illnesses which have innumerable side effects.  It’s hard to concentrate on spreading the love of God when you feel like you were thrown down a flight of stairs!   

I get envious sometimes.  My friends are going on retreats or have a last-minute gathering and many times I can’t attend.  I feel like giving God the “what for?!”  I can get so deep into self-pity that it’s hard to pull myself out. But then I remember, that God is able when I’m not!  He must have something else for me to do.  I may not want to do anything but whine and cry, but “times a tickin’ ” as they say, so, I must keep moving.

Lately in my own life, people all around me are getting sick and dying. This has been so difficult for me!  I have been a mess!  Little things turn into giants before I know it!  The Bible says in Song of Solomon 2:15, it’s the “little foxes that spoil the vine.” These little foxes” can be anything from a computer crash, to more paperwork to fill out for my health insurance, to something that unexpectedly broke and I need to pay money to have it fixed, or my son needs help, or something needs to be cleaned and I have to pay money to clean it. You get it, right?  This has been happening to me non-stop!

My knee-jerk reaction has been anything but lady-like or especially Christian lady-like! “Lord, keep one hand around my shoulders and the other over my mouth!”  Yes, that’s my ultimate struggle.  We all have them. Now you can see why I am overwhelmed!  The more things happen, the worse my mouth gets!  Do I give up? Absolutely! Well sort of, I have to keep giving it to God and continually ask Him, “What is the spiritual meaning of all of this?”

The the Lord reminds me that the end is near.  I am seeing signs everywhere, not just with the killing of Christians – one every 5 minutes somewhere in the world, according to a report by Christian Freedom International– but with political issues in Europe and the Middle East. I have chills because things are lining up and I want to be ready for whatever God wants me to do! That is my heart’s cry! 

In my recent clamor to the Lord, this prayer emerged…

There is an earthquake happening in my life.
There is a shaking like I have never felt before.
I feel crazy and out of control with everything falling all around me!! I am running around and grabbing hold of things so they won’t fall or break, however I now see they are people and things God wants me to let go of!
But it seems so wrong! I am so weak!  Lord Jesus, help me let go! God give me the strength to embrace the shaking, to say “good-bye” to what I must so that only a firm foundation remains.
My flesh is screaming but my Spirit is crying out…
“Tie me to the altar My Lord, though I’m kicking and screaming, burn off all that must be gone!  Help me to TRUST YOU!
Be My Consuming Fire!”

We must remember that when “life” happens, we must push on because we only have a short time on this earth to influence and touch lives for the Kingdom’s sake. We may feel as if we’re like the olive that’s beaten to extract its oil. But, if we stay in fellowship with our Lord Jesus, He will strengthen us with the Holy Spirit – His Oil of Joy. I praise Him for being so merciful! We are the church, the body of Christ and no matter what happens, we must be about our Father’s business.